Been a While, Just Wondering

Been a while since I’ve posted.  Not as long as some folks, but not as quickly as others.  Been focusing on a number of things.  Can’t say why, but it happens.

December has never been a great month for me, even with the holidays.  Why?  Not sure.  Didn’t have anything bad happen.  Just not my favorite month.

Seems like there’s SO many expectations, with Christmas, and all.  You know, buying the right gift, parties, and traveling, and getting with family.  Yeah, we’re working on that.  Not the parties, as we’re not throwing any, or have been invited to any, but we’re traveling again, maybe tomorrow, maybe Friday, maybe later.  All depends upon whether our daughter in law has the stomach flu or not.

The shorter days seem to be the worse.  The negative feelings seem to come more often.  Seems like my patience grows weaker, this time of the year.  I’m more restless, too.

I’m sure that others feel the same way, or, at least, kind of the same.  Feelings that just seem to cloud the mind.  Fleeting feelings of depression and anxiety.  Nothing’s really wrong, can’t put my finger on it.  Been happening since as far back as I can remember.

We live a comfortable life, with plenty of food, and enough to pay the bills, and have some for fun.  So why, such feelings?  I’m not working, so it’s not job issues that keep pestering me.  The kids are both grown, married, and doing well, so it’s not them.  I’m happily married, most of the time.  🙂   We do have our misunderstandings, but we work through them, and move on.

Oh well, I probably won’t ever find the answer.

Such is life.

Until next time, Peace!